Do low paying jobs reflect the attitude of work?

We went to a government hospital to get our medico legal. We went to a typical office space where there are windows for distinct things. I ask an honest question of inquiring how to acquire the medico. The fat guy in a loud voice it’s not in my window, don’t ask me that, you should go to window 3. Then on window 3, I was also faced with the same attitude. What is their fucking problem? Is it their salary? They are not happy with the job? Why do they hit it on the people asking nicely to them? Do they know that most of the people there are first timers who don’t know what to do so they ask. What is the problem? We got the medico but we are enraged by the attitude of those people. Don’t treat us like shit when we are the ones asking you nicely. Don’t put that attitude in our face when the reason is your salary or the working environment is not that nice. We want to make ends meet but don’t be such an ass like the corrupt government officials(most of them, when will they be extinct?). Enjoy your jobs everyone even though the pay is not that good. You are even lucky because you have one.

Do we use things for it’s purpose or for PORMA?

It’s everywhere, you buy basketball shoes but it’s only used 5% of it’s life on the court so what happened to the 95%?. You buy a laptop but always go to wi-fi zones just to browse on facebook. What the hell? It’s not that you don’t have the right but what is the purpose of those things? I just want to blow this up because me and Vanessa are taking jogging seriously. It’s not that we plan to join every running competition but to be fit. We saw this bald guy with a frickin’ high tech utility belt. He looks like a serious runner. Complete package of running shoes, shades, music player, running shorts and the utility belt like batman. We really laughed out loud because it has to compartments for two different drinks, pockets for those gel things, for towel, and other stuff. But what the hell? We never saw him sweat nor see him again that day. We made 4 laps,1 lap is 2km. but we never saw him again. Porma? I think so.. We see some professional runners there just bringing one bottled water. I’m a drummer by heart And some gigs seems to be a lot of those people. Bringing double pedals and stuff but just using for endings. For what? You just want to brag you have those shiny double pedals that is expensive. So what? For me in my metal band few years ago. I bring double pedal because of it’s sound. It’s louder for individual strokes than doubled in one foot. I do one foot blast but don’t use double pedal for endings of your songs. Buy things for it’s purpose, and not just to brag and show it to others who deserve it more than you.

Amazing judges from talent shows.

I’m amazed by the judges in such talent shows. They have the powers to make one ordinary person into a celebrity by their judgment. Do you wonder if they are credible?
I don’t know but some of them are not. Do you wonder how do they get their powers of the ear when they hear such pitchy notes and know that it’s flat or sharp? I do wonder when you are a showbiz columnist then you become a judge in a singing show then you hear intonation problems all of a sudden? Wow.. I’m just wondering, It takes a long time to develop that skill but then you are from a chizmiz world then you know that all of a sudden.. wow.. it’s really amazing how you do that.. what a world.. Nostradamus maybe right because of this things happening..

"Haters are our undercover fans..."

-Paulo Coelho

Finally!

This has been our new (and improved) addiction lately! We run every weekend This is the reason why I practiced the art of going home early. he-he, needed a lot of courage and determination of course! Saturday mornings have never been the same, who would have thought I would be more than willing to wake up at 4:30 am especially on a weekend. Well, I’ve been successfully doing this for a month now. Thanks to my ever supporting Alvin who decided to join me in my endeavor. Like the old saying goes, “No pain, no gain.” And as for me, I’ll endure the pain as long as I could have my then 24″ tummy back!

*wishful thinking*

Ditch that TV

Okay, so maybe we can lighten it up. How about, turn off that TV a little more often? I’ve been wasting a lot of my free time watching TV lately. And actually, its not always my choice. Now here’s the thing, every time I come home from work, I always catch my mom watching “teleseryes”. Since I was always too tired to go upstairs straight away, I would lie down on the sofa and watch TV for awhile. I would endlessly tease my mom on how obsessed she is with those TV programs and she would always laugh at me and ask me why do I keep on watching if I hate it? Yeah right. I want to know the answer too.

Actually, my original plan is to come home as early as possible to have more time to do my fave things which includes: reading my old magazines I’ve read countless times, writing essays and taking a bath before bedtime. But the moment I take a glimpse on what my mom is going ga-ga over, I always find myself hooked for hours, too. Well for one, I hate watching teleseyes because they seem to have this power to make a fool out of us who patronize these shows.

It’s irritating and amazing at the same time on how they manipulate us into liking things. I hate the fact that when the lead role is a famous chef, its like everyone is going crazy about chefs. If the role is a fashion designer, it seems like the whole world cares about fashion designers when in fact, we don’t even give a damn about these people in real life.

And what else? There was this one teleserye and I’m so glad that it was over, where a plain lad who dreamed of making it big in the music industry suddenly became popular when she sang for a commercial jingle. And it was like everyone was out to get her autograph. And if you happen to hear the jingle, it was so ordinary. Oh, and did I mention it was so boring? And since when did we fantasize over a commercial jingle singer in real life? The only one I was able to remember who made it big in that field and gained fans was Nikki Gil for the Coke commercial. But its not everyday that we go crazy over a singer on a commercial jingle. Come on, give us a break please.

The boob tube is controlling us. There’s more to life than wasting our time on these pointless drama. Life is already too complicated, why do we have to burden ourselves into thinking what will happen to actress A when actress B finds out she was flirting with actor A who happened to be actress B’s long time unfaithful boyfriend? I suffered the same dilemma. Man, I just spent the whole night wondering what will happen to that teleserye I was so into. Stupid of me right? I better start ditching that bad TV habit before it gets the better out of me.

Blast from the Past!

I saw this ad of a beauty product on TV and they were comparing before and after photos of the celebrity endorser. Actually, the bottom line there is the idea that there’s nothing much of a comparison even after 10 years because she has been using the product for almost a decade.

I don’t know what has gotten into me that I rummaged through my past-life cabinet (that’s where I stashed all my grade school stuff trash. I jumped for joy as I found the old picture I’ve been looking for. Back then, looking through old photo albums have always been my biggest fear. I don’t want other people to see my old photos which are all very disgusting. I have big eyes, cropped hair, pale skin and I’m scrawny. I looked horrific in other words, or at least that was what my family used to describe me.

How come nobody told me about cheek tints, lip gloss and bronzer back then? Had I known more about plucking my eyebrows, it could have made a big difference on my appearance. Had someone told me that wearing baggy pants and large sized shirts never looked pleasing to the eye, my first crush might have given me a second look…or a first glance rather.

But that was just a thing of the past. Yeah, I’ve hated the way I looked before but don’t we all? And I found out recently that our best beauty will come as we age. Well, probably because now I’ve settled my body issues and I managed to love my body, flaws and all. At least now, I see them as part of me whose now only better. After all, beauty is still in the eye of the beholder.

I considered putting that old photo here as a proof that overtime, I’ve improved a lot but I changed my mind. Let it remain a mystery, something for me to cherish and keep to myself as a thing of my childhood years, and for you to imagine. Young and vibrant :) Or so I would like to think.

Wow!

dami blog ng month of october..!!
hehe.. asteeg!

Damaso? Damaso!

Why the hell am i writing this..
I dunno.. maybe he is right.. maybe his wrong.
But here is my piece of mind...
Government and Church are seperate entities.
In the colonization of the Spain in our country for
more than 300 years it was one. And we've been thru hell.
It's ok now but i think there is a second coming.. I hope not..
I feel for the desire of change.. i'm one of them i think..
The gov't now is just 3 months in the seat.. there are better ones
and less rotten ones.. Why the hell is everybody complaining?
don't tell me Filipino people just live to complain and rally?
but when they go their homes they are just also a suck ass fags
like the ones they complain about.. Why is the church over reacting
by ex communicating P-noy for having the balls to change our lives?
The country who colonized us,Spain they have a nice country which
the church is REALLY seperate from the Gov't. Why the hell the church
didn't ex communicate the former Presidents? they are full of scams than
P-noy. For having balls to push thru this bill you have to ex comunnicate him?
It's really annoying to be here in the Philippines.. You have to please everyone,
in pleasing everyone, you end up with nothing. like our country..
Pesimistic? no.. it's the truth.. I'm optimistic, i strive for change..
I was a former youth of our church.. it's fun serving.. but inside the church
itself has full of conflicts still in ministries.. they look so religous in showing everyone.
But they lack in the spiritual sense.. Personally i know someone from our
church who are perverts(Silahis). But when you look at them in the church they look
so respected.. I don't intend to demoralize my religion.. but this are from what i saw..
And from the nearer church here in out place.. they use to have 2nd collection
for in the church.. after i graduated from prep,grade school and high school nothing
still happend. The church is still the same,it's because the parish priest has a family
and lots of cars.. wow.. why don't you ex communicate that guy first?
I believe the Reprductive health will be a huge step in decreasing poverty..
The gov't is always blame for poverty now that they are making up for it. wtf do they want?
Civil disobidience for what? The church has outreach programs but i think it's not
enough to solve poverty still. I also see some born-again churchs have feeding program
and i think some of them are more active and true to their goal of helping but it doesn't still
solve poverty.. The Upper class and the middle class have family planning, it's the lower part of the
group is the problem. They can't control the urge or sex. Then they let their children do their
errands for them.. So what now? I think the church is overreacting, if they ask for civil disobedience.
I will change my religion for buddhism.. i think it's not complicated as the Church i know..
Why do i think of this? I think religion should be the conscience of the society and not as
thing that incites another bad from the thing that is worse already.
I don't want to do that if you will pursue that civil disobedience,i will be really dissappointed
because you also started a bad thing.. you are not God.. You are just messengers of God..
you just spread his holy words.. You don't have the power to excommunicate him..
Please excommunicate me also if your going to do that to our President. I'm not
an avid fan of P-noy but i think he has the balls for fighting into something..
And i think God will be also dissappointed in you because you care so much for this
thing and forgot one person to save.. That is me.. and more of like me.. who strive
for change and betterment but you just let us be bad by ordering us in civil disobedience..
Even though the church said that, it will still be bad.. i don't know i just want a better place
to live in.. maybe it's not in the Philippines after all..

Run, But You Can't Hide Man!

Last Tuesday, Alvin and I came across another bad luck. Must be a series of jinx for a graduating student like Alvin. I had my fair share of accidents too when I was nearing graduation last year. Today, I can feel my whole being crying out for justice. We were hit and run by a Mitsubishi Adventure on our way home. I swear, I almost believed I’ve lost Alvin that night. We were in the hospital waiting for test results and I found myself sitting in the dark corner of the room, praising and crying out to God. He must’ve loved us so much that he spared us from death or any serious injury. I could only praise him. We filed a police report against the driver and now I’m just waiting for that fateful day to come face to face with that asshole. I’ll make him reap what he saw.

BLOOM!

My phone alarmed today and a message appeared on my to-do note, it says:

” God has placed you there for a purpose, whatever it is might be, know he has chosen you for it and labor faithfully. BLOOM WHERE YOU ARE PLANTED.”

My sister saved it in my phone during those times I was whining about how I hate my situation and how I would like to give up. It has been a daily reminder since then and up to this day, I labor faithfully knowing that God will never allow the faithful to be moved

My Revised New Year's Resolution

1. I’ll be serious about losing weight I’ll start loving the body that I have now.
2. I’ll be a go-getter I’ll never settle for anything less anymore.
3. I’ll do my best to be happy always I’ll get rid of all the dramas.
4. I’ll start a new hobby I’ll improve what I already have.
5. I’ll be a good girl I’ll think twice before doing something.
6. I’ll never be lovefool again I’ll love with my eyes open.
7. I’ll stop being naive and lonesome I’ll laugh more.
8. I’ll start loving myself more I’ll think more of others and less of myself.
9. I’ll be patient I won’t give up easily.
10. I’ll be more focused I’ll start to pay attention

Random thoughts 101

I’m so in love with my kumareng Vanessa!!
Masarap magjogging! Kick ass talaga!
Masaya ako at makakagraduate nako.
I hate the music industry! It’s full of monopoly and politics.
I want to clean up my act in drums.
Be a civilized person (hindi na paaction star)
Ingatan and cellphone kahit pipitsugin e baka kunin pa din
Makikisapak at sipa ako pag may nakita akong holdaper or snatcher na nahuli.
I want to make a difference in this cruel world.
After long years in conservatory,I know the pitch but still suck in singing
If a focus on something,I can so it.
Mahirap maging pikon.
Bakit may sapak ang broadband
Gusto ko makakuha ng kanta ni james brown.
I want to be the best that I can be.
Leche talaga yung nakasagasa sakin.
I want to have a good system in everything
Why are Filipinos reklamador?
Isang galaw na di gusto e rally kagad.
Hindi inaantay ang resulta.
Nasan na ang pilipinas?
Nasa baba pa din di tulad ng dati na nakakaangat sa karatig bansa.
Bat kaya ang dyip antagal magbyahe
Lagi ka pang haharangan pag tatawid ka.
Bakit madaming virus sa internet.
Bat ang daming masasama sa mundo.
Bakit nagiging badut maging tama?
Bakit hindi pa matapos ang naruto at bleach?
Bakit ang mahal ng cymbals?
Gusto ko magmarimba.
Masarap matulog.
Gusto ko bumalik sa tacobel at maghihiganti kame ni Vanessa sa burrito etc.
Masarap talaga magjogging!

TYR 706!

You are one heck of an irresponsible driver.
You hit us yet you run away from your mess.
You left us broken in the middle.
You showed no compassion , nor a simple sorry.
You let us consumed by hatred by your wrong doing.
But God didn’t left us in grief.
He showed a small light that will lead the way.
A light that’s getting bigger.
And getting us near to your beloved Mitsubishi adventure
Color white and metallic silver.
We already know you.
We will not be above the law,
We will settle this in legal terms.
We will NOT stop until you face your mess
We will NOT stop until you learned your lesson
We will NOT stop until you get it right
For we are scared that you might do this again.
And that time, you already killed someone.
And try to get away with it again.

And i'm so sick of love songs

I’m loving Black Eyed Peas’ Meet me Halfway and Shut it Down feat. Akon right now. So opposite from my usual playlist which is basically composed of loud music. Well there came a point that I even indulged into listening to lovesongs. I fell asleep too many times to mushy songs and I have to blame someone for it. That's what people whose in love often do.

Now I listen to these chill and feel good music for a change. I find it so relaxing and it sets my mood in the morning. I dunno, I just wanted something different. Lately thats what I do, i try to venture into other things. And i’m often misunderstood by people because of it.

I remember wearing a red lipstick last week, and people started asking me why do I look different, blooming, blah-blah. At first, it was amusing that they seem to notice, but then it becomes irritating. Someone made this drastic comment that I have been trying to look pretty because I’m threatened of this newbie employee, that I’m up for a competion. Right then and there I wanted to slap this person’s face and tell him he’s so pathetic. People are mean sometimes. How can they ever think of those things when I don’t have a single idea of that in my mind? Do I really have to explain to everyone why I was wearing a red lipstick? Can’t I just do it because I want to and not be obliged in giving a reason?

Honestly, I just wanted to go out of my comfort zone and try new things. I’m hurt, i just want to feel good about myself. I’m so tired of everything, of the people around me, my routine, that same old lovesong i listen to over and over, and i just need a break.

What's Up Santa?

You see I started feeling this way that day when Alvin and I had dinner together at the mall one Saturday evening. While I was sitting there waiting for our food, I received a text message from Alvin who was then waiting on a long line of people on the counter who were also starving to death. It says, “Can you hear the song? Christmas na talaga no?” Only then did I realize that the whole time I was sitting there, Christmas carols had been playing on the background.

And it all began. That sudden rush of excitement and that old familiar smile on my face is telling me that my favorite time of the year is fast approaching. I soooo love the holiday season. I love the traffic, yes even if it means i’ll be coming home later than the usual. I love to hit the malls during this season where everyone is panicking to get their shopping list done. I love the festive, the foods, the parties and the gifts. Actually, there’s only one thing that I don’t like about it. Its how we sometimes pretend to be happy even if we are not. We feel pressured to be jolly because we think that everyone is feeling that way and that is what the season is all about. Celebrating.

I don’t know if I have been naughty or nice this year. But I want to get good gifts come Christmas time. I’m sure you give out second chances right? I think its not yet too late to put my acts together and show you that I am still your good girl Besides, I still have a few months left. I have one request though. Should you happen to catch me trying to fake the smile on my face, can you remind me of all the reasons why this Christmas is worth celebrating?

The Philippine Star Goes Live!

The Philippine Star goes live yesterday at the New World Hotel. The country’s brightest and widely read newspaper unveils the future as we party the night away.Top celebrities entertained the crowd of advertisers and everyone had a blast. Foods, booze and prizes were overflowing. And its me up there, sharing the limelight with Luis Manzano and Iya Villana. Walang kokontra! Haha:D Fun.Fun.Fun!

*photo courtesy of Mong Pintolo

'Tis the Season for Gifts!

I received a surprise gift today Alvin bought me a running shoes! Well I’ve been wanting a new one lately and Alvin who was playing Secret Santa made plans of surprising me all along. We even had a fight earlier and I was really, really mad at him. I didn’t know he was up to something fishy. Well, I consider this an early Christmas gift. And I’m hoping for more. Ho-ho

Thoughts on a Sunday Morning

I think my life needs a major overhaul. I don’t understand why I allow myself to live with something that I don’t like. It feels like as if I don’t have any other options and I hate it. Coz all my life, I never boxed myself into thinking that I deserved less.I don’t remeber a time I feared losing something that I want, if it will cost me my dignity. Well it all boils down to something, we all due respect. And if I feel that I don’t get it, i head out to the nearest exit. I hate it thaat some people are making a fool out of me. And there are some who seems to believe that I only deserve to photocopy things for them, run errands for them, etc…etc.When I still don’t have my college degree, I wasn’t even treated inferior by my boss, by the people around me, even by my students when I was an English teacher. Probably because everyone knows that we were all intelligent people. Its funny coz now, people act as though they won themselves a personal assistant. I don’t deserve this. I studied hard to have a good life, to have a good job and not just to get paid a little to be everyone’s doormat. I’ll start picking myself from here. Let’s see what happens.

Vanessa 101

FOUND: Laughing at her own jokes, adoring herself in the mirror

IDENTIFIED BY: her all consuming mood, her pensive look, her roaring laughter

WEARS: her heart on her sleeves, a sheepish grin, the sweetest toothy smile for her enemies

BIGGEST FEAR: Conformity

LOST WITHOUT: her big imagination, someone to pick on for her own amusement

INTRIGUED BY: the cheerleaders, everyone else’s lunch food

PET PEEVE: inflated egos of athletes, home economics

PASSION: passion

CAN YOU IMAGINE HER: in a Lady Gaga concert, adding “like, whatever” to her vocabulary

Best things in the world

1. not coming home till 3 in the morning
2. that after shower feeling
3. waking up to your alarm and falling asleep again
4. 12 hours of undisturbed sleep (and peeing doesn’t count)
5. last minute plans that turns out to be the best ones
6. noodle soup straight from the fridge
7. hidding the tv remote so i can watch spongbob the whole time
8. a kiss on the forehead
9. cake and coffee breakfast
10. that Friday im gonna party after work feeling
11. an unexpected hello from someone you hate
12. singing and dancing in front of the mirror
13. waking up in the morning and finding out you still have some minutes left to just lie there and daydream
14. answered prayers
15. the nights I can barely remember