Sunday, June 20, 2010

ibalik mu jacket ko!!!!!!! whaa!!

Harsh reality is for everyone.. it makes us worthy of living in this wonderful earth(but nature is very angry because many of us aren't responsible enough).
Anyway.. As any 4th yr. high school would be.. you are so damn pressured and clueless in your college course.. as my guidance counselor told me,i would be a successful swordsmith(panday wtf) anyway.. i applied in 3 major universities UST,UP,DLSU..
In UP my test was ruined becaused i misunderstood what my sister told me.. i thought it was right minus wrong,but the reality was right minus 1 but in 4 mistakes.. so i kissed the ruins of UP gudbye and i hope the one beside me didn't pass because he ate a jabee burger that completly made everyone starved.. anyway.. in DLSU.. i made a mistake... i passed but didn't like my courses.. hehe.. anyway in UST i passed in civil engineering,i was ready to reserve my slot but didn't do it... instead i went to music.. and what a frickin world..

i dunno why.. but what the hell... i hate my frickin senior who i will renamed.. instead of guiding us to be better.. he just made us look like a failure.. i reacted by not showing up and making up a decision to be a rockstar and not to study..
hope that there would be a break and be famous and escape the harsh ways of school.. instead i choke up.. many times... i had some breaks but didn't take it.. i had a chance of being a drummer of a certain "very good singer" but didn't take it.. i'm just scared the shit of myself.. anyway.. i had to face them one by one.. being in charge of my own and not be scared.. i studied.. and studied.. and regret.. many regrets.. why i didn't took studies seriously.. anyway.. many opportunities later.. still didn't take it.. but i'm near to my goal and graduate.. my ghost of irresponsibility has followed me.. it's still pulling me down... and i want to fight but i don't know how...

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